So. Blue Balls. For girls.

Yes, yes. Blue balls is I believe a term for guys for when they get really horny and then don't get a release, or something like that. Well, I believe Girls can recieve the same thing. It's painful, and boy do I wish that I had that one and only I can't wait for.

So, I've been fairly sucessful at staying sober. I only cheated once. And so far... I am proud. But man, do not read your favorite kind of online porn, after thinking non stop about the one you've been crushing on for most of your life, when you have received semi-credible information that you may have a chance.

No-Fucking-way.

I kinda wanted to scream. But seeing as I have to wait, (long story... not really but for my security reasons, I won't mention why.) I had a kill-joy.

On a different note.

So I feel pretty... jazzed up. I got a backrub... semi-foot rub (Thanks Dan.) Then got to go home... AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAnd try to sleep. Well at least I'm relaxed. But with my mind racing mile a minute, I get to lay in my sleep number bed, (back to my original topic) with no one there to snuggle with. Because my dog and cat are anti-Brit tonight.

So. I guess it wasn't so much of... Blue balls for girls, but more like...

Wishing you had someone to share closeness with. Not saying I wasn't ready to bang like orangetangs, but... at least closeness would have been nice.

So... Here is my concencus.

I.... Need... a... Heating pad.... and a.... FUCKING BODY PILLOW.

--Brit